Author Archives: shai

Real talk. Being 21 was probably my worst year ever. Which is funny because being 21 is supposed to be the best! Long story short I had lost all of my “close” girlfriends at once, as well as my one best friend whom I considered family. I had nearly zero friends for almost a full year. Understanding why this happened is clear today- but at the time, not one bit. I was experiencing family issues the same year also, which became too much at the time. That year was the darkest & lonely I’ve ever endured. I even moved to Ontario for 6 months because I couldn’t take it anymore. I fell into a depression and knew I needed a change and fast. Six months of being with my sister and meeting new people helped very much. However, it was easiest to finish my degree by doing it back at home. Upon my return, I came back determined to keep friends who were kind, caring, humble & trustworthy- and I was determined to be the same. Since then, I have made (& kept) friends that I can count on with one hand, who are now my life long sisters. I couldn’t be more grateful. I have also found the love of my life. I truly believe the gratitude and humility I possess today could not have happened had I not experienced what I did. I see now that this was meant to happen- maybe my subconscious mind simply realized I was surrounded by assholes! Even when things felt utterly hopeless, I knew losing all my friends was not something I could change. “When it rains, it pours” right??! It was up to me to learn more about myself and understand that this happened for a reason. Staying positive saved my mind & my own self worth. Thanks for reading xo