Author Archives: Willow

Counting down the days until Bonnaroo! Everyone should travel to a music festival at least once on their life. The power of watching an artist you love or a band you’ve just discovered with thousands of other people sharing a similar experience is so magical. I’m so blessed to have friends who want to share in these experiences with me but my favorite part about Bonnaroo is being able to wander around by myself and get lost in the crowd. Being so far from home that I can enjoy the noisy silence and just be. I hope everyone gets to experience at least one festival this year, whether it be folk fest or something bigger!

My biggest blessing – No matter how tough life can be sometimes, I am always reminded of how lucky I am by this little girl. Open adoption is such a beautiful gift to both a birth mother such as myself and to an adoptive family. I am so so blessed to be able to see my daughter grow into the amazing person she is becoming and to also share that experience with a couple who was ready to be parents when I wasn’t. I’ve always been open about my experience but I don’t share as much as I should. For those who are curious, I became pregnant at 16 when I had just started back at school and was getting my life back on track. I always thought I would be someone who would get an abortion because at 16 I had no idea the real weight that carrying a life had on the mind. Right from that moment I had a heavy feeling in my heart that I knew I wasn’t meant to raise this baby. I look back and know I could have had there been no other option but I am glad that I found adoption. After doing my research for a couple weeks I met with a counsellor at Adoption Options, a local private adoption agency, where they helped me look through files of prospective parents. I looked through 6 hours worth, which is a shit ton when you’re pregnant an uncomfortable but I’m happy I did because the couple I chose was the second last file that I looked at. I knew it was them after reading their letter and looking at their pictures. They might not have been perfect but they sure seemed like it. Fast forward 4 years and I am blessed to say that my experience with them has been nothing short of perfect. Though I have gone through my own personal struggles regarding the adoption, they have stuck by me every step of the way and continue to go out of their way to make sure I am happy and comfortable with them. My daughter is so lucky to have amazing parents like them. Though I don’t see her as often as I wish I could, she is the reason my heart beats, the reason I pull myself out of bed on days when I feel like my world couldn’t possibly go on. It truly is an amazing experience knowing your heart beats in someone else’s chest.